Thursday, August 19, 2004

There's something about you...

So I just got off the phone with Joshua. It made me so happy to hear his voice, and at the same time, made me miss him so much that as soon as I hung up the phone the tears came without me even trying. I hate being away from him. and I hate knowing that we are apart for a worthless mission that they don't even need him for. I miss him so much it aches. God that sounds stupid. lol.
I think a huge part of it is that my family is not around either, or my friends. and i'm sick... so the only thing I have to do is sit around and think about how much I miss him etc.
I guess I should feel lucky that i love someone in my life that I love so much that I want to be around him everyday. He is truly my great love.
and now i sit here, letting tears dry on my cheeks because my soldier is far away. Man, the year in Iraq is going to be a roller coaster of emotions huh? lol. But on that note i am sure that being surrounded by family and friends will help tremendously.
So I am super pumped that Josh will be here for Chirstmas. And thinking about us getting our own Christmas tree and decorating it and doing all that fun stuff together thrills me. I am such a girl.
Thought about Blayne today and wondered how he was doing. Obviously I am not going to contact him or anything but I still wonder. It's so weird to be sitting online and seeing his name on my buddy list and knowing i can't IM him or talk to him. I guess that goes with the territory of breaking up. I dont think we will ever be able to be friends. I guess that fits the profile too. Still... I get weirded out that he is not in my life.
Well, I am happy to have heard from Josh. and I hope they get the lead out and send him home to me. Our apartment is awfully lonely without him here to help me fill the space.

posted by Kellie @ 6:09 PM |


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